What now?

August 30th, 2008

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Riot

If it were not for the multicolored lights that surrounded us, I swear you would have been able to pick out each individual star in the sky for the night was so clear. The quiet was kept at bay by all the squeals and squalors of the crowd. People were everywhere, laughing, talking, bellowing. Music blared from every direction. Smoke and other smells issued forth from the vendors that surrounded us. When I looked up, the ski lift loomed above me, carrying people across the fairgrounds. It was all enough to give me the beginnings of a headache.

Life seemed to pass me by as I sat on a bench with my cousin, opening night of the California State Fair. It almost felt like I was sitting in a big glass tank, looking out at the world happening around me. I could tap on the glass loud as I wanted, yet no one would be able to hear me. This suited me just fine.

The fair had been huge, exhibitions everywhere: livestock, horse shows, art contests, food, and shopping. We were tired. Our legs were cramping. Our sunburns were sore. Needless to say, our moods were not completely pleasant. I had been visiting my cousin, Ashlie in California for almost a week now, and we had been living a mile a minute since I’d arrived.

We were just waiting for the night’s finale. It was almost time for the fair’s opening night fireworks show to take place and then we could go home. That is why we were sitting down on the bench. The view was perfect. It did not matter which direction the sky-sparklers came from, we would be able to see them. The crowds seemed to mostly be standing on the sides, near the vendors, and our bench was situated right in the middle of the walking lane. It was as if we were sitting in a clearing right in the middle of a sea of people.

After a few minutes of quietness between the two of us, jets of red, green, and white raced upwards to our left, leaving scars of smoke in the sky. The lights in the air fought valiantly for the attention of the crowds. It was a losing battle, however, as most people’s attention was still occupied by the loud fair rides and games.

After a few minutes of this light-war the ground beneath my feet seemed to project vibrations upwards. I could feel the pulsation taking over my body: first through my toes, then into my legs, and finally up my spine. It was as if a herd of elephants was stampeding on the pavement.

As I tore my eyes away from the shooting pyrotechnics, people began racing towards me, past me.

The sounds of hundreds of people’s feet were nothing to the screams that began to shoot through the air. These were not the normal sounds of people enjoying the swirls and jumps of a miniature roller coaster ride. These were the terrified howls of women who think that something is after them. Their voices carried through the air, piercing my eardrums. Men’s voices began to bellow at those around them, “Run!” and “Get out of the way!”

I looked at my cousin bewilderedly. She looked right back at me with the same expression on her face. What was going on? Were we in danger? Could we actually be standing in the middle of a terrorist attack?

For a split second I felt abandoned, alone, in a sea of screaming terrors. And yet, it seemed that in a matter of seconds, police officers—both undercover, in uniform, even atop horses—were running towards the fireworks, in the direction that everyone else was coming from. I couldn’t tell which thought was more frightening: the fact that the police had to be there to protect me, or that they were leaving me, running towards the danger.

August 30th, 2008

I’m not finished yet, but here is what I have so far. Its for my creative writing, non-fiction class.

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If it were not for the multicolored lights that surrounded us, I swear you would have been able to pick out each individual star in the sky for the night was so clear. The quiet was kept at bay by all the squeals and squalors of the crowd. People were everywhere, laughing, talking, bellowing. Music blared from every direction. Smoke and other smells issued forth from the vendors that surrounded us. When I looked up, the ski lift loomed above me, carrying people across the fairgrounds. It was all enough to give me the beginnings of a headache.

It almost felt like I was sitting in a big glass tank, looking out at the world happening around me. Everything was just passing me by as I sat on a bench with my cousin, opening night of the California State Fair.

We were tired. Our legs were cramping. Our sunburns were sore. Needless to say, our moods were not completely pleasant. I had been visiting my cousin, Ashlie in California for almost a week now, and we had been living a mile a minute since I’d arrived.

But it was almost time for the fair’s opening night fireworks show to take place and then we could go home. That is why we were sitting down on the bench. The view was perfect. It did not matter which direction the sky-sparklers came from, we would be able to see them. The crowds seemed to mostly be standing on the sides, near the vendors, and our bench was situated right in the middle of the walking lane.

After a few minutes of quietness between the two of us, jets of red, green, and white raced upwards to our left, leaving scars of smoke in the sky. The lights in the air fought for the attention of the crowds.

After a few minutes of this the ground beneath my feet seemed to project vibrations up through my toes, into my legs, and up my spine. It was as if a herd of elephants was stampeding on the pavement. As I tore my eyes away from the shooting pyrotechnics, people began racing towards me, past me.

The sounds of hundreds of people’s feet were nothing to the screams that began to shoot through the air. These were not the normal sounds of people enjoying the swirls and jumps of a miniature roller coaster ride. These were the terrified howls of women who think that something is after them. Men’s voices began to bellow at those around them, “Run!” and “Get out of the way!”

It seemed that in a matter of seconds police officers—both undercover, in uniform, even atop horses—were running towards the fireworks, in the direction that everyone else was coming from.

I looked at my cousin bewilderedly. She looked right back at me with the same expression on her face. What was going on? Were we in danger? Could we actually be standing in the middle of a terrorist attack?

August 28th, 2008

Harry Potter and by God I think she’s on to something…

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Ok, so this idea sprang upon me a while ago while I was wikipediaing J.K. Rowling. Everyone always says how the HP books are the anti-christ’s first way of usurping the little children and all that jazz, but actually Rowling is religious. I believe the article said that she was Presbyterian, but don’t quote me on that.

Well, I was in my art history class (115) today, and we were looking at this piece, The Lamentation of the Scrovegni Chapel, painted by Giotto. Well, the Lamentation is where Judas kisses Jesus, marking him to the Romans. Essentially, Judas bestows upon Christ the “kiss of death.” And then I realized that in the HP series Dumbledore and Prof. Lupin stress the fact that death is not man’s worst enemy-their is something worse. The Dementor’s kiss. Because after that, you are without your soul. Just like in Christian theology to be absent from Christ is to be without your eternal soul.

And then I was able to take it further…

1. Prof. Trelawaney makes a prediction “marking” Harry Potter as the chosen one. It declares that only one can live, and that one must kill the other. The Old Testament continually prophesizes the savior. It says that one day He shall come who will conquer death and save us all.

2. Continuing with the idea of marking and prophesing, Harry Potter also conquers death. The only way he can save himself and the Wizarding world is essentially by dying. He must give up himself. When he does this, he is able to kill the last part of Voldemort that resides in himself. Christ also must willingly give himself–the perfect sacrifice–in order to save humanity.

3. The final battle takes place in book 7 of the Harry Potter series, and the “good guys” win. (You will also notice that Rowling studied C.S. Lewis. You will also notice Lewis’ allegory about Christ and the second coming was made up of 7 books. The Harry Potter series is also comprised of 7 books. The number 7 is mentioned in the Bible as the perfect number) The New Testament Revelation talks of a battle to come, a battle to end all battles, that of Armaggedon. It has already been pre-determined that when that time comes Christ shall win and the meek shall inherit the Earth.

4. This was touched upon briefly previously, but the most important detail to both of these mens lives–though one is fictional and the other is not– is that both of them offered themselves up willingly as a sacrifice for their worlds. It this essential fact, their willingness that was able to allow them to conquer death, rise again, and win their final battles.

I need to write an essay and publish it, copyright it, and get millions of dollars for it.

August 28th, 2008

Poetry Paper for English 295

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chelsie_meredithcomplaint-paper_gc

Can anybody help me? I just got this paper back (thanks for that, four months after the class ended) and a bunch of red circles with no explanation really means absolutely nothing to me. I mean, after all, if I left it that way then I must think its correct (although I think their was one thing that was wrong, but I haven’t bothered changing it yet and I don’t remember where it was either…) and a red circle doesn’t explain anything. So yea.

Did I mention that I hated that class? The teacher will remain nameless because I don’t want to tar anyone’s well earned reputation or anything, but I didn’t find that person as a very professional administrative figure (and that is part of what being a professor is). Also, I didn’t find them very organized. They would talk about their other Beatles focused class for an entire class and we wouldn’t cover anything in our class. I understand that “it all matters” and all, but the Beatles weren’t going to be the final exam if you know what I mean. I also didn’t find that particular teacher a very good explainer of what he/she wanted and rather biased to their opinion. You know how in writing certain points are mere opinion of what is good/bad? I hate it when teachers grade to what their opinion tells them is good/bad versus what is gramatically etc. deemed appropriate. Just telling me that something doens’t sound good to them–when it sounds perfectly acceptable to another person (and this wasn’t always the case, I know, but it was sometimes) does not help me learn but that person’s writing preferences and certainly doesn’t help me develop my own voice and style.

August 27th, 2008

You know, I’m completely surprised

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because I have pretty much decided–although I have not signed any paperwork yet–to join the United States Coast Guard Reserve, hopefully as an officer. And contrary to what I expected, everyone has giving me unwavering support. They keep telling me that they think its a great idea and that they think I would do well in it.

Now, I wasn’t planning on doing this for the shock value that it held, but it was an excellent bonus. I’m really one of those people that rises to a challenge. I also seem to do better at something when other people tell me that I can’t. And, if anyone knows me, they would know how …odd? it is for me to even consider going into any military branch. And yet, people keep telling me that, they actually think I’ll do really well in it. But no one has been negative, or told me that I can’t or I’m not good enough. It has been so surprising. A blessing if you will.

I guess I don’t know what else to say. I’m still kind of just in shock that people haven’t dropped their glasses in response to my news.

August 26th, 2008

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August 26th, 2008

Gabriel Iglesias

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August 26th, 2008

Obsession

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I don’t ever remember him not being in my life. I can go back through the family album and see pictures of him being forced on me, my little body made to sit oh so lovingly next to his. I was practically raised to see him as part of the family.

As I got older he appeared all over our house; first he was in the kitchen, helping mom make our favorite lunch, macaroni and cheese. Then, he was in the living room just ready to keep her company in case she didn’t want to be alone while she folded laundry and watched the Lifetime Channel.

Slowly, he crept his way into mine and my younger sister’s bedroom. His porky body would be waiting for us when we got off the school bus. His mix of white and black hair would appear so shiny in the afternoon sunlight that streamed through our window. He would be sitting on the floor, next to our toys as if he only wanted us to play with him. After all, mom was still at work and he had been so lonely all day without her.

But we knew what was going on. He was the man of the house. And if truth be told…he had been there first.

Of course, you couldn’t go anywhere in my mother’s bedroom without seeing him. Usually his body was sprawled out in the messy covers, right in the middle of her bed. One could almost see the sleep still in his eyes, as if it were decent to be sleeping like that in the middle of the day on a Saturday. I had to help vacuum and clean my bathroom. Mom was busy typing on her laptop for work. Even my little sister (only six years old at the time) had to clean the bedroom. But he didn’t have to do anything. He could just lie there all afternoon.

How could a single woman invest so much time and money into another person when she still had two small children to raise on her own? And believe me, you can find a small fortune dedicated to him in our home. His clothes, neatly pressed, hang in my mother’s closet. His blankets are folded nicely atop the couches. He has his own specially made set of dishes sitting in the kitchen cupboards, only to be used for special occasions. He even has his own waffle iron.

Whenever my mom, sister, and I went anywhere Mom would find things that were reminiscent of him. The holiday season was always the worst; Valentines Day, Easter, Christmas, even my mom’s birthday—which in her opinion is a national holiday and the banks should be closed. On Halloween he would sit on the side porch passing out candy with her. On Christmas he would help us decorate our tree. It seemed that no matter when, no matter where, his small, beady black eyes would stare back at me in an expression of sardonicism. It was as if he were the chosen one in the family. Not I.

Even today, you can walk in our living room and see just as many pictures of him as there are of me, my mother’s first born child, her perfect little girl, her babe.

You might say I was jealous. I might just agree with you.

You must understand that this guy… this animal, has been apart of my mom’s life for far longer than I have. One could go so far as to say that he’s the love of her life. And it’s not like she doesn’t love me. She does. She tells me so every time I get in bed, get off the phone with her, or sometimes just because she can.

But the love between a mother and daughter is just not the same as that of a woman and her Snoopy collection.

August 18th, 2008

the jones women

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so basically, i am one of the jones women. or well, thats the only last name i can attribute to us women cause thats about as far back as i know. you see my great-great grandma jones ( whom everyone says i look just like) had three daughters…now, ever since than the oldest daughter (and incidentally oldest child) always has atleast two daughters. my cousin just had the most recent addition to the group. now their are a few interesting things about the women in this family.

1. we’re all crazy. one of my cousins attributes this fact to the birth of ones children, but i don’t think that is the impetus. i think it just happens.

2. we’re all stubborn as hell. you can’t tell us to do anything, and you can’t make us choose a path that isn’t for us.

3. we are all destined to continue to have girls

4. we ususally marry young and usually are able to find and be with one of our three loves: first love, love of one’s life, true love.

5. men can not tame us…completely, and it takes a strong man to get us to respect them at all.

6. we all seem to have some sort of special intution or gift or something…

August 18th, 2008

ever have bad dreams?

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